I’ve lost patience for men. Lying, not trustworthy, disappointing creatures. I should become a lesbian now. Even the one I thought was my friend betrayed me. It’s not that he can’t come and be with me when I need his support. It’s that he PROMISED ME he’ll be there. I’m completely alone. Lonely, left to myself. And no one can help me. No one want to help me. Not even try. I have to carry on all by myself, because no one care about me after all.
I’m crying to sleep every night for a week. It’s so terrible, horrifying. I want to go back in time. Just 6 months. Do everything different.